My World Is Broken Down Into One Simple Principle: I Believe I’m Powerful, Therefore I Am – A Get To Know Me

I didn’t have a book review or anything really to post as I normally would have, and so because of that I thought I would just write about me. I put a lot of myself on this blog, when it comes to my University work for my degree or just things I want to showcase – like my reviews of books, music and my art. I wanted there to be some place where I could actually tell you about myself, besides my quick about me you can find here. Afterall, this is my blog, with my passions and work why shouldn’t you get to know who is behind all of it?

To be honest, I find the whole “get to know me” ice breakers, short descriptions, kind of situations really difficult. Like how am I supposed to make you know anything meaningful about myself by telling you if I have siblings or if I like chocolate? I can’t and you can’t gauge anything about me by knowing such basic information that only really makes up the shell to my inner character.

But to be kind, I will give you that really brief description and you can determine for yourself if you want to continue. That was a trick, to see if you were paying attention, because you can’t determine anything from that information.

Anyway, my name is Taylorlani, and yes I like chocolate despite being lactose intolerant.

THING’S ACTUALLY ABOUT ME

“Yeah, I grew up on the South Coast of Australia.” Boring, that says nothing about me. I did grow up on the south coast, in many different places because we moved around a lot. This also means I went to a couple of different schools, which was really unsettling and annoying as a kid if I’m being honest. Now, I lived in many different places not because we could afford too but the opposite. I was homeless for a minute as a kid too, living in friends of family’s houses because things did get like that. I never came from much either, but, honestly, that’s okay.

I don’t acknowledge this part of my life for you to feel sorry for me though, I do because I’m proud of myself. I, if it’s not too narcissistic to say, have a strong work ethic, large life goals and drive because of it. One of my main life goals is to drag myself out of poverty. In year six, I was like eleven, I sat my mother down and said I was going to University for Media/Writing. I don’t think any of my family or teachers thought I would stick with it, they’d just say okay about it. Yet, here I am at nineteen in my fourth semester, second year of exactly that. I worked for that goal since the start of highschool, I did extra work/programs to up myself all the way into my senior year.

I do have siblings, but the thing with that is it’s not just a simple statement. None of my siblings and I have the same father, and there is some age gaps and different ethnicities within that mix. I have an older brother, a whole ten years older actually, and as a kid that meant we were never really close but I’m happy to say that changed since I too am now an adult. I have a younger sister, five years between us, and she is very much following my footsteps with anime and hair dye. Both my siblings are white, however I am a biracial Māori and proudly so.

THING’S I LIKE – HOBBIES EDITTION

If it was not obvious from my book reviews, I like to read a lot. I own a lot of books too despite my bank account crying out against it. My favourite book/series isn’t anything magnificent, it’s not some deep piece of literature as you might expect from someone majoring in writing in a degree of Communications and Media. Actually, if I hadn’t picked it up at age ten from my primary school library because there was a wolf on the cover – I was a wolf girl 😐 – then I’m pretty sure it wouldn’t be. However, I did pick up that series and as a lonely kid and proceeded to read it during lunch. Never in my life has anything changed it so much as that book. That book was Shiver by Maggie Stiefvater and I read that over twenty-two times within one year, along with the following two other books. Out of all three in the trilogy the second, Linger, would specifically have to be my favourite. A monumental moment in my life, never had I ever read a book front to back before and it really changed me. As stated before I’m majoring in writing at University, I’m sending myself into debt all because this one trilogy took such a deep rooted hold onto my soul and showed me a form of escapism I needed. I have never gone back either, I still read all the time, I write a lot though I don’t share that as much. It’s really not a light statement when I say those book’s changed my life.

I’m an artist, though I really take a lot of time to ever produce anything because nothing is simple and it takes me forever to actually finish something of quality. It doesn’t really matter to me how much or how little someone likes my art, because I never started creating on the basis of other people. Authenticity is a key quality in any kind of creative exploration and, not so surprisingly, people can tell when it is fake. This is why I never force myself to constantly create because I don’t do it just for an audience at all, there is so many unfinished, failed anatomy or just for fun pieces in my sketchbook that I don’t share openly that are just for me – an extentsion of myself.

I like cooking. I wouldn’t say I am amazing at it or that I can really make things with no guidelines, but I enjoy it. Which is kind of funny since I am such a picky eater and hate eating around people if I’m not insanely comfortable around you. Actually, I did VET Tafe Hospitality in highschool and I believe I’m one module away from having my Cert Two in Hospitality which I could easily go and finish anytime. Sadly, I hate working in hospitality, I used to help out family friends with their small business. But cooking for my own enjoyment – stunning, we love her.

Some quick round off’s – I like shoes a little too much, makeup is not me being insecure but another way of expressing myself artisitcly, I hord stuff animals (it’s an issue), I adore being out and doing things so please invite me to adventure.

MORE ABOUT ME – OBVIOUSLY

A major thing about me that is impossible to miss if you follow me on any platform is that I am, and grew up a part of, the music scene. I put that broad label on it because I cannot for the life of me really tell you where I fit, because I am a part of many different subcultures. I was raised on metal and many different things as well. In fact when I was a kid my dad would put on Fall Out Boy’s live dvd because I enjoyed it so much, which was truly a reason I ended up being a scene kid in my early, preteen years. I also stole many of his CD’s as a young kid, including Nirvana, Soundgarden, Pearl Jam, and My Chemical Romance. I ended up taking his books too, and this is why I owned an old battered copy of Motley Crue’s The Dirt.

My childhood was very much impacted and surrounded by music, which lead to me doing so on my own. I was massively a part of the 2011 and onward emo scene. I started going to shows at thirteen/fourteen and being active within subcultures from that moment forward. It’s a very big thing in my life, a massive trait of mine, and something I would adore to include in my career somehow as I do with my University work. Actually, here’s a review of The Maine’s new album I recently wrote.

I am really into learning and teaching myself things and because of this I am wholeheartedly into astrology. Yeah, I know, you can laugh now if you wish. Some books that really have helped do so are: The Complete Guide To Astrology, Understanding Yourself, Your Signs, and Your Birth Chart – by Louise Edingtom, The Signs – by Carolyne Faulkner, Astrology For The Soul – by Jan Spiller, The Secret Language Of Birthdays – by Gary Goldschneider and Joost Elffers, and really anything by Gary Goldschneider.

If you were interested to know my chart, I’ll only give you my “big three” only unless your my friend. Pisces Sun, Capricorn Moon, and Libra Rising. It’s ah – it’s something.

THING’S I DON’T LIKE

I am not going to waste my time talking about anything I don’t like, I just felt like you would expect it to be here.

SOME OF MY FAVOURITE QUOTES

I kind of don’t really know how to end this off. This could be because I don’t see myself ending, or having an end at all. How are you supposed to stop “getting to know me” when I don’t stop existing? I will forever be advancing, changing, moving within myself and my own identity, and I love that. Thus, instead, I will leave you with a collection of my favourite quotes to possibly exist within you as well as me. Or not, I don’t mind, but I love them and so they’re here.

“My world is broken down into one simple principle: I believe I’m powerful, therefore I am.” – Kingdom of the Wicked, by Kerri Maniscalco.

“She wasn’t interested in telling other people’s futures. She was interested in going out and finding her own.” – The Raven Boys, by Maggie Stiefvater.

“I closed my eyes and let self-loathing gently sing a siren song to me.” Linger, by Maggie Stiefvater.

“History, huh? Bet we could make some.” Red, White and Royal Blue, by Casey McQuiston.

“And I was sorry the young man said that, for no great poet has ever been afraid of being himself.” By Langston Hughes.

“Die with memories not dreams.” – Unknown.

“The key, Gansey found, was that you had to believe that they existed; you had to realise they were a part of something bigger. Some secrets only gave themselves up to theose who’d proven themselves worthy.” – The Raven Boys, by Maggie Stiefvater.

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